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A better life in Columbus   1 comment

When I first came to Ohio after getting treated for drug treatment in a mental hospital, I was barely able to make decisions for myself.  All I could do was to keep a schedule, go to my appointments and meetings, and study about my drug problems.  Later, I started being able to think about managing my money and make plans for my future.  I did some research about places to live.   Cincinnati had outpatient drug treatment programs and some jobs.  However, I wanted to get a state job.  Therefore, more state jobs were available in Columbus, a state capital.  Therefore, I moved there.

Recovery was very difficult in the beginning of my stay in Columbus.  I got involved with some men who were more interested in controlling my life than in working on their own recovery.   One day, I got a black eye because my ex-boyfriend hit me when we were in bed.  I went to counseling that day, and my counselor helped me get out of that relationship.

I went to counseling for domestic violence, and I met my future husband, who was high-risk for domestic violence based on his background.  I was a little scared to get involved with him.  However, he got counseling to overcome its effects and read the Bible regularly.  I also was studying the Bible, and was working with a mentor who helped me to understand God’s plan for my life.  In the past, I relied on men to guide my life.  I learned how to let God control my life.  As a Christian, I am able to use the Bible and the Holy Spirit to guide me through difficult situations and to find ways to improve my life.

Three years after moving to Columbus, I got a full-time job with a government agency.  I worked hard to reach that goal.  I had part-time jobs while looking for a State job, and I filled out many applications and went to many interviews before I finally got that job.  A few months after getting that job, I married the man who helped me learn about spiritual guidance.   I have worked for the State for 14 years, and am still married to the same man.  I like my job, and my husband and I continue to love each other and support each other.  I do not want to go back to using drugs.  I know I have a good future ahead of me.

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I went through counseling after my divorce.   I based my self-esteem on external events such as getting good grades in school, staying married, and not being dependent on my parents.  I was grieving, and I was feeling worthless.  I went to a counselor who was very confrontational, and I did not like her at all.  My sadness was overwhelming when I saw her.  I told her I was so sad I was afraid to cry.  I was afraid my crying would never stop.  She told me she did not believe me.  It is possible for depression to get that bad, though.  I was still in school, and I sometimes would miss a class due to grieving.  I was not done with my bachelor’s degree yet.

After I got my degree, I decided to go back to the city where my ex-husband, Thomas (a fictional name) lived in Texas.  I did not want to stay with my parents.  I had many bad experiences in the city where my parents lived in California, and I wanted to visit old friends in Texas.  I had many friends there.  I thought Thomas and I were still good friends.  Based on our phone calls, he sympathized with me and listened to me.  I did not know he had a girlfriend who would sometimes stay at his apartment overnight.  I thought with a bachelor’s degree, I could find a good job and be able to stay in Texas.  I did not find good jobs there, so I went back to school and continued my education.

Posted February 6, 2011 by Nancy Mathis in Uncategorized

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